Finally decided to break up with my boyfriend today. I know it was the right thing to do, but I still feel sad. Like I know that he wasn't right for me; he was the person who had shown me that gore video, not to mention the time he tried to force me to watch the Charlie Kirk shooting video. That among other things made it very clear to me that it wasn't going to last. But idk, it kind of just feels like that was my only chance and I blew it. I hope I made the right decision.

Also he still has my tote bag :(

I've been thinking of picking up writing again. I used to do it a ton when I was younger, and it'd give me something to do other than going on reels. I desperately want to lessen the amount of time I spend on reels, especially after having come across a real gore video that deeply disturbed me and honestly still does a week later. Hopefully writing will help fix my attention span and bring back the creativity I used to have. I figure I should stop being so afraid of what others think of me and really put myself out there!

Other than that, I should definitely start practicing the flute again. I've been super lazy about that for years now, and flutes are expensive! I want to actually use it instead of leaving it to gather dust in its case. I could use some suggestions for what pieces to practice, though.

After fiddling with html and css, I've finally come up with a little layout to start a blog! Because I've had internet safety rules hammered into my head since I first accessed a computer lab in primary school, I won't be sharing super personal info. Instead, I'll just ramble about my thoughts and vaguely share things that have happened in my life.

For my first post, I'll talk about my Christmas! I had a super relaxing day, since I mainly celebrate on Christmas Eve, so I don't have anything interesting to note (Just got attacked by a moth while writing this, idk how they get inside but they're so annoying).

Christmas is the best time for me to reflect on the many blessings I have in my life. It's hard to stay grateful sometimes, so it's nice to have some reminders of how lucky I am every now and then. It's also a comforting reminder of the love that God has for us, to send His Son to Earth for all of us. Not to be a cornball, but I'm certainly grateful for that, and for all my loved ones, friends, and people who have been so kind to me online.

I think that should be enough for a first post. I really need to learn what to write about in a blog lmao